I have been missing from my blog for awhile now.... and I apologize. I have thought a great deal as to what I would say upon my return. I am still not quite sure how to handle my situation on my blog. I have decided to just be very honest.... this blog is a reflection of me. Blogs aren't just supposed to be happy moments... but life moments.
On Saturday, January 5th I delivered a baby girl that I could not bring home. At a routine 4 month doctor appointment in December I was given devastating news... that our baby did not have a heartbeat. Because I have a blood clotting disorder and had been taking blood thinning injections... as well as a history of significant bleeding during deliveries... my doctor told me that I would have to wait 2 weeks before I could deliver. There are no words to describe those 2 weeks at home... waiting, agonizing.
I was able to see and hold my little girl. We named her Frances Camille DiNello. She is buried where I attend church... right across the street from my school.
My doctor has placed me on disability for this month and I am thankful for the time to rest, process, etc. I have been trying to stay very busy at home. I have cleaned almost everything (some things twice)... lots of creating TpT projects. Organizing my boys' clothing, putting the DVDs in ABC order.... you get the point.
I am a super private person, but am starting to see the merits of opening up... I am different now.... I am stronger. I am thankful to be surrounded by family and friends. I truly feel loved. Thank you for letting me share... and thanks for sticking around. I promise to be back soon!